Light Bulb Moment

I swear sometimes I make things more complicated than they have to be. And then I have that "Aha!" moment where the light bulb goes off. It happened to me today and I just had to laugh at myself. I've been spending a lot of time on the spreadsheets for work, getting ready to export/import our contacts and data from one program to the next. Naturally I'm frustrated and feel like my brain is fried with all of these functions and cells in Excel. So when it came time to transfer from one workbook to the next, I failed horribly. I was copying columns and getting crazy error messages because of all the formulas. I searched Google for ways to take care of this with other shortcuts and functions so my data wouldn't change format or disappear into randomly coded symbols. It was time consuming and tedious, I was at my wits end. I thought to myself - there HAS to be an easier way to do this.

And then it hit me. I could simply keep the same sheet I had, and change the title of the columns to match the sheet where I was trying to transfer the data. It was that easy the whole time. I felt so stupid for wasting all that time and energy! But I had to laugh it off. At least I learned new functions and cheats for Excel. I've just improved my skills. There is a silver lining!

- L

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Must Have Willpower

I'm the worst when it comes to willpower and self control. It's at about 0. I'm supposed to be on my No Buy for this month and I'm already shaking in withdrawal. But I can't give up because I need to save this money. I just had to buy some glasses because my old pair were on their last leg arm and I cried a little on the inside. But I was budget friendly with my glasses, so all is not lost. I ordered them online from Coastal and I am eagerly awaiting their arrival. The frames were on sale for $64! They're different from the style I normally wear and I'm excited to see how they look on me. I used the Virtual Try on where I uploaded my pic and tried them on that way, hopefully they look as amazing in person!

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Anyway enough side tracking! A major area where I have no willpower - food! I am guilty of being a constant snacker and it shows. I have been making healthier decisions for the most part, but snacking is my down fall. I have to beat it, but I just give in all the time, and too easily. I drink water constantly when I'm at my desk, hoping to quell the cravings, but it doesn't always work. I really need to cut it out and be more strict. I have to be healthier. Those subway stairs will not defeat me.

I really need to be more disciplined in the gym too. I only do cardio for 20-30 mins and move on to the machines. I should be doing more than that. But I just tell myself its enough that I'm even at the gym, it's a step in the right direction, blah blah. And rush through my time there so that I can catch my TV shows. This is very sad and almost defeats the purpose of me going to the gym. I really need a gym partner to help me. :(

Anywho... that's all for now.
- L

Am I Becoming Invisible?

I've always had issues with getting too much attention. Before you go ahead and tell me I'm being cocky or arrogant, I'm not at all trying to be that way. I'm not an attention whore, nor do I think I'm the best thing that ever happened. Quite the contrary actually. I think I'm pretty regular. I have my moments where I do think I'm a bad bitch, but most of the time I'm really self conscious. I don't get what other people see when they call me pretty or beautify, I just can't see it. Anyway, when I hit puberty my body decided it would be funny to spring some B cups on me overnight. At 11-12 when all the other girls were still flat as a board, it became the new thing for everyone to make fun of. Like it wasn't bad enough that I was a social outcast and a mega geek. Random guys started saying stuff on the street, everywhere I went I was getting more and more attention. I was no way at all ready for this attention. It freaked me out. And this is what I have had to deal with as I got older. I got rid of my glasses and BOOM a whole new wave of attention and cat calling. I eventually owned it and let all the comments roll off my back, but there are times I still get rankled by it. I wished I was ugly, or unappealing to guys. I mean can't a gal just walk around and not have anyone even glance her way?

Well it seems that I got my wish. I don't get the cat calls, the "Good Morning Beautiful" anymore. I more or less walk about doing as I please with not so much as a second glance. Even when I'm all dolled up and have my face on, nothing! I used to go to the gym in my raggy old sweats and feel uncomfortable with male attention. Now not a guy in there blinks. Maybe I'm making it up and its part of the quarter life crisis. I mean yes, I did wish it would stop, but damn crickets? Really? Can there be some kind of balance? I guess not. And now I'm sitting here going crazy thinking I'm invisible and it's kind of hurting my very little - but still there- ego. To be fair though, a lot of people must not see or hear me with the way I've been getting stepped on and bumped into by people on the street and in the subway. So I guess I am overreacting huh? LOL at myself. ::le sigh::

In other news, there is no news. I'm just  muddling along. Catching up on TV shows. (Totally love Idris Elba in Luther and cannot wait for what's coming next!) Going to the gym occasionally, which is still better than never :) Also drinking more water and learning to appreciate grapefruit. Baby steps people. I won't transform overnight. No lipo/mia/ana over here.

XX
- L

Lazy Bones

Yep that pretty much describes me at the moment. For whatever reason I feel like I'm in a slump. I drag myself to work and home with no oomph. But I have also been all over the place as well. I have been trying to do too much (again) and probably have overworked myself. I need to take a break. BUT I am taking 2 mini getaways in July and I cannot wait. :D Since my company is so awesome, I get the 4th and the day after off, so I'll be getting out of NY for the extended weekend. The following weekend is the Mister's birthday weekend! So of course we are doing a little something something. I'm sure this will give me my mojo back. I'm just getting tired of the city, the monotony. And I am a little frustrated with the apartment search amongst other things...

On a more positive note, I am learning more about the natural/organic home beauty treatments. I would like to think if it being more beneficial than lathering chemical laden creams, etc on my face and body. Not to be confused with me being all natural or anything. I still love me some processed foods! But I'm working on that too. Being natural is expensive, and out of my budget at the moment. I'm still switching certain things up and slipping a few organic things in here and there. The most important thing is my face. I'm into the clay masks and raw honey right now. My idea is (I'm sure I've expressed this here before) a clean and properly taken care of face will get rid of the redness and acne and glow on its own. Thus cutting out the need for makeup and lessening the money I spend on beauty stuff. I have already been in love with coconut and jojoba oils for the past few months, so adding a few more organic things to the beauty routine that are more beneficial than the store bought products is not a big deal. I'll probably go more into detail on it later, when I have my routine down. I am replacing a lot of name brands with plain old raw honey and some oils!

- L

Change is Coming!

Yes, changes to my blog! I finally sat down the past few days today to make the edits on my old blog (don't wanna mess this one up!) and am liking what I'm doing. Nothing major, just refining it a little more, cleaning up a few things, smoothing out the edges. That kinda thing. Finally change the color. I got way too tired of this pink theme. All I need is to fix up my header and tweak a few thangs and I am there! Thank you google and all the people who have posted tutorials, guides, how-to's and included screen shots for an even easier step by step. I can say it does make me feel good to do it on my own and look a little more decent. Maybe I can trick people into thinking its more professional than it is! LOL

So in the coming weeks, maybe even next week, I will be giving my blog a facelift. We have a long weekend coming up, so I'm sure I can get it all done. Until then, I don't think I will have any new posts. Sorry guys! 

Peace, Love, & Sunshine
- L